Devious Journal Entry

i get mad jealous when people have these fucking beautiful colouring/shading styles and can do all of that in one go like ??? the fuck dude?
i mean i know i have to practice to git gud, but it's so damn frustrating
like i've spent the past eight-ass years tryin to git gud at drawing and now i have to focus on colouring and shading and well as improving with drawing??? fuuuuuuuuuuck

also drawing humanoids sucks and i hate it but i have to do it more often

also note to self: stop using other peoples' art to fake prove to myself how much better they are than me
because i've been doin that dance for so damn long that i'm just breaking myself down and blah blah
stop that
stop that right now, me